Hurl Your Mind-Vomits Upward

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One of the things that OFTEN escapes our memory is that God the Father wants to hear from you–God wants to hear from you. Like, for real you. Not fake you. Not the you that you show to everyone at work, at school, that you display to everyone on facebook and twitter, on your hustle all throughout the day. He doesn’t want your mask. He wants YOU.

And I say “it often escapes our memory”, but maybe this has never left your memory at all because you just aren’t even aware of this. Maybe your “Christian faith”, or “The Christian faith” as it’s been presented to you, has never delved in deep enough such that you’ve been told that. Maybe you’ve never heard or had this idea submitted to your mind–the fact that God wants you to pour out your heart to Him. When all the bullcrap shuts down, when you’ve left work, when school’s out, when you take off your mask and get real, when you’re down to who you really are when it’s just YOU, or when you’re feeling the after-effects of that party or drinking session last night, when the people who you thought were your friends abandoned you–whether it be because they were mad at you, or whether it’s just that ya both lost touch with each other because ya both weren’t as close as you thought y’all were. Like, when AALLLLL that kind of stuff fades away and disappoints, and you take off your mask, and you’re alone and you get to thinking about things and the way they are, those are the times you’ve got to remember there is a more fulfilling relationship, and there is more meaning to life than all of that, and it is when you know God Almighty on a personal and real level.

If you were to ever check out Numbers 11.11-15, you’d see someone named MOSES doing this. He even goes so far in Numbers 11.15 to say, “PUT ME TO DEATH AT ONCE” because of something that is bothering him.

And like, here’s the deal on that: Moses is doing “God’s work”, and he is saying that he wants God to put him to death. He is doing a really important work when he says that, and he *KNOWS* he’s doing a really important work—Moses is LEADING hundreds of thousands of people (the Israelites), and is taking them to a new place (spiritually and physically) where God wants them to go. But he gets tired! He stresses! He deals with all of those responsbilities, and he *knows* what he is doing is a good work, it is a right work, and it is what he is supposed to be doing. But STILL, all of that said—he *still* gets exasperated and proclaims that he wants God to kill him because he is sick of dealing with those people.

And that’s what I’m trying to tell you in this blog post! Two things:

1) It’s ok for US to do that—to directly express to God our frustrations in whatever extreme way we feel—even though we’ve got important work of our own; OR, even if you’re NOT convinced that your work is important, either way.

2) God WANTS you to do it—He wants you to cry out to Him, to be honest with Him and share the exasperation with Him—and it LIBERATES you when you do it.

Look at David in Psalms (seriously, there are a lot of example, but for instance, look at Psalm 88.14-18Psalm 38.3, and there are plenty more Psalms like these),  he cries out to God and accuses God; same with Job 30.20 and its surrounding verses. God can handle it, it’s not like we’re going to somehow offend God or blaspheme ourselves to hell or something. Are you being real with God? Would you dare to be? Have you learned how to pray yet, such to the point where you honestly wring out your thoughts and emotions to God Almighty and relay to His spirit what you are thinking and feeling?

I once had a teacher that told me how when he was first beginning to know God, he had no idea how to pray. Just didn’t know. And his vocabulary in those times, was just mostly rife with swearing. And so he would take out his frustrations on God—oftentimes swearing at God and to God. He had a lot of anger built up at the way his life was, and he wasn’t even sure if he really believed in God, and just etc. etc. You know. My point is that God’s a Big Boy (that almost doesn’t sound right to say, heh, but you get the point)—like, we’re not going to hurt His feelings somehow. And if that’s the way you feel, and you are that frustrated and that’s all you have to say, you need to let that out to God. Like—He is GOD, He can HANDLE it. This teacher of mine who did that found that to be, honestly, one of those most liberating things he ever did at the beginning of his Christian faith, and God ended up strengthening him and preparing him to be, tada, yeah, a Bible TEACHER eventually. O_o weird stuff, huh? That’s not to say everyone ends up a Bible teacher when you begin swearing at God 😛 but the point is, you engage in that element of REALNESS with God, and it surprises you how far it takes you in getting to know Him.

I cannot speak for other evangelical Christian denominations, but one thing with which I’ve noticed Baptists are really good is the theology that God is 100% omnipotent, 100% omnipresent, and 100% omniscient. Now, that oftentimes makes a conflict for us. We think to ourselves, “Why waste time telling God how I feel when He knows it anyway?” Well ok. Let’s take that same logic and uh, how’s about you just DON’T BUY your significant other any gifts this next year or do anything special for them this next year or do not tell them you love them or show them your love in any way this next year? Sound like a good idea? … Why not? “It’s ok—my significant other KNOWS I love them, so I don’t need to waste time saying it.” Uh, no—it’s called RELATIONSHIP…? Ya do all that stuff ANYWAY, EVEN THOUGH you “know that you love each other”.

It’s the same with God.

Sure He knows EVERYTHING already, but He wants to hear you come to Him with your burdens, or, just, your mind-vomits. Yes. God wants your mind-vomits. I just said that. How many times have you talked over something with someone and after you were finished, exclaimed something along the lines of, “Even though nothing was technically solved—somehow it’s better talking about it.”? That’s also true of the Lord. I wouldn’t hesitate to say it is EXPONENTIALLY truER with the Lord.

So the thing is, it is a two-way street of communication with God:

1) The way that you speak to Him is by prayer.

2) The way that He speaks to you is that He appeals to your mind and to your spirit as you grasp onto His Spirit.

Well how do I ‘grasp onto His Spirit?’“, you ask? It’s a good question, because it’s one of those hoky things you’re always hearing Christians say, and it’s gotten so watered-down, over-used, and cheesy that it has next to no meaning—until you experience communicating with Him for yourself, and then it all makes sense. You see,

God’s Word“, “God” “Truth“, “Love“, “Jesus Christ“, “His Son“, “The Gospel“, “Salvation“, “The Bible“, the Greek word “Logos

—these are all the same thing, it’s all the same concept. You could write each of these words on a white-board and place an equal sign in between each of them. Humanity’s entire history is about God’s relationship with mankind, and His revelation of Himself to mankind. Now we’ve cluttered it up with politics, geographic national boundaries, and compartmentalizing “religions” into being these cute little gray areas that different groups of people have different religions just based on whatever cultural heritages they’ve cooked up over centuries and millennia. But it all boils down to the fact that God is the ultimate Creator, and He sent Jesus Christ in order to best translate to us on our level of understanding, as humans, His ways so that we could understand His ways. And that’s what the Bible is for, and that’s why people call the Bible “God’s Word” or “the Word of God”—It serves as a tool to understanding God and knowing His ways. When the Bible says that the mysteries of the universe are in there—it’s true. And the way that I can say something that sounds so ridiculous is that I have made it a habit in my life to understanding the concepts presented in the Bible, and lived them out and tested and tried them, and it’s made ways for me—in countless different ways. It’s not only my own efforts, but it’s a combination of my efforts and God’s laying certain things in my path and guiding certain circumstances. It’s both. And you can’t ever grasp that, believe it, or appreciate it until you experience it for yourself. But it won’t happen until you start regularly, faithfully, humbly reading God’s Word (The Bible) and applying it, and COMMUNICATING WITH HIM and asking Him to reveal things to you, and then start doing it in your life. And not only must you regularly intake His Word, but you must do it from a humble, inquisitive mindset and ask Him to guide your mind and reveal His truths to YOU AS YOU read His Word. It’s both that you have to do—both READING it and ASKING HIM TO GUIDE YOU as you read it. I can tell you the way I did it when I didn’t know nothin about nothin—so just ask me if you wanna know.

I’m sorry, but there is no formula–no ABC, no one-size-fits-all, ya just have to do it for yourself.

Now, I am not saying that talking things out to God and praying/meditating to Him should be a SUBSTITUTE for talking things out with your trusted friends, family, and acquaintances; we *are* relational beings, and we should continue to ALSO talk things out with our fellow humans. But jeez—when are we going to realize just HOW important it is to maintain an ongoing conversation with God Almighty..?

—Travis J
Started on 9-25-2012
Finished on 9-27-2012, around 2.25 PM

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Are You Compassionate? Or Do You Just Love Revenge?

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This one’s not a hard question, folks—are you compassionate? Are you—really? Like, does the pain of others really have any sort of effect on you? Or when someone else is in pain, are you just more like, “Well, it ain’t happenin to me, so, I mean whatever. Hey everyone’s got their sad stories.

For a quick read, you oughta check out one verse in the Bible—Numbers 12.13 . This verse shows a prayer that Moses cries out to God.

So—big deal..? Moses praying to God in a verse, so what..?

Well, you have to understand just a little bit of back-story to appreciate this little prayer Moses was saying, here.

See, at this point in the Bible, God is in the process of leading all of the Israelites out of Egypt, He has now delivered His law to them, and they were getting to a point where they were going to have their own land, and be their own people group in their own right instead of merely belonging to the Egyptians anymore, etc. God was guiding them through all of this process and everything.

Now, throughout all of these years, Moses was pretty much the leader of all of the Israelites—and we’re talking about hundreds of thousands of people by this time, by the way. This wasn’t just a handful of shepherd-looking people, and a few kids and some animals. This is hundreds of thousands of people. Moses is the main one that leads these people. Obviously he’s not God, but God speaks more closely with Moses than He does with any other Israelites—and any other human being on earth, really. It even says as much in Numbers 12.8 how closely God holds and relates with Moses. So Moses is the main one to whom God relays messages that are ultimately for the Israelites, and Moses leads the Israelites, and everything.

Well, in Numbers chapter 12, the first few verses show two people—Miriam and Aaron (Moses’ siblings)—hating on Moses. They were jealous of him because God always spoke through him, they were sort of upset that Moses married some random foreign woman—they were just generally upset and jealous, and feeling those human traits of jealousy that we all tend to feel at some point or another against someone because that person just seems to have it all going for them, and we wish WE “had it all going for us” too. Now, we don’t know whether Miriam and Aaron were saying all of these jealous things and murmurings out loud AGAINST God, or out loud AGAINST Moses directly, or were just murmuring amongst themselves and maybe their friends/family/acquaintances/neighbors. But whatever the case, Miriam and Aaron get so upset they start verbalizing their grievances enough that God takes note of it and strikes Miriam with a disease, as punishment for murmuring against Moses, which is indirectly murmuring against God because of how closely God dealt with Moses.

So God does that—He says (paraphrase of Numbers 12.8),

If you two know how much I confide in and share with Moses, and how he is *MY* appointed messenger and servant above anyone else in the world—how could you possibly have the nerve to speak against him?

Then he strikes Miriam with leprosy, which is a bad skin disease.

Now here’s the point of this entire blog post, and my whole point, here:

After God does that to Miriam because Miriam was COMPLAINING about Moses, she was JEALOUS of Moses, and she was HATING on Moses—the first thing that MOSES does is CRY OUT TO THE LORD ON BEHALF OF MIRIAM and says, “O God, please heal her.” (Numbers 12.13)

Uncanny. Moses could’ve been a G about it, and talked trash and been like, “Yeeeaaa-heh—that’s what you GET for hatin on me! Gotchaself a SICKNESS, huh? God STRUCK you for complaining, huh? Guess you gonna hafta shut up from now on~

No. He doesn’t do that. Some may say he had the *RIGHT* to do that. If you go back and read over the many times that Moses beseeched the Lord not to utterly DESTROY the Israelites after they had done something stupid and God WANTED to destroy them; and then if you look at all of the time Moses had spent, just generally LEADING these people, and being a faithful servant to God in leading them, and just generally doing the things he was supposed to do; some may say Moses would have the RIGHT to react to God’s striking Miriam with the disease in such a way. But he didn’t react that way. That’s the heroic part.

Moses cared so much for this person and had so much compassion for her that even though this person who was jealous of him and was murmuring against him was stricken with a bad skin disease for complaining against him, he prayed for that person. He prayed for God to HEAL that person.

Could you say you honestly could have done that too? If you’ve had someone hating on you, and when they got something that was coming to them, instead of just wallowing in it and receiving some sort of worldly pleasure (which does not last long and does not fulfill you), you either pray for them, or you just somehow take a higher road. Could you do it? Would you DARE to TRY to do it? Would you dare to try to take a higher path than merely just, “Ahhh, sweet sweet revenge~“?

Can you think of a time in your life when you had someone hating on you, or been rude to you or whatever, and then they *did* get what was coming to them—in those times, did you just simply relish in that? Or did you take it as an opportunity to pray for them, or somehow show the un-worldly, against-the-grain love of Christ to them in some way after they got what was coming to them, even if you may have every right to just relish in it and rub it in their face?

The love of Christ are the ways of God–it’s one-in-the-same concept. And the love of Christ and ways of God always surpass, outdo, exceed, and are superior to the ways of this world. On that you can always count. There is more liberty to be found in approaching things through the lens of His ways, as opposed to the way that the world and your flesh try to deceive you to act. Moses had every reason to just sit back and be like, “Oh yeah, Miriam got what was comin to her—I don’t care that God struck her with that disease.” Yet, he didn’t. He had compassion upon her and prayed for her.

How would you react? How *will* you react next time?

—Travis J
September 25th, 2012
11.20-ish PM

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All in the Same Boat

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It doesn’t really matter who you are—we’re all in the same boat.

I don’t know why we’ve let our churches get to the point where we act like those of us who are involved in a local evangelical Christian church are also in some sort of inner-club and we treat people who are NOT “in” with us differently. I try not to do that, and if I were to be honest, for the most part, I don’t think I do treat them any differently. But SOMEONE in the church must do this because whenever I talk and listen with people who are NOT in regular attendance at some sort of local church, their mindsets overwhelmingly are things like, “I’m not good enough to go to church”, or, “I don’t want to go to church because people will judge me.

So anyway, I dunno how we got to the place where that’s the aura we give off, but sadly, that’s where it is. I have my suspicions as to how we got this way, but ultimately, they’re just suspicions; and honestly my suspicions can basically be summed up as, “Well, we’re all SINNERS”, meaning those of us in the church are sinners too, and we allow our flesh to influence us to start acting a certain way that’s not the way the church was SUPPOSED to work. But anyway, moving on..

But the truth is—we’re all in the same boat. All of us people. We’re ALL downfallen. And whether or not someone makes a choice to accept Jesus Christ as their Savior or NOT, we continue to think, act, and live in a downfallen way, just because we are products of this world. So whenever possible, when my acquaintances say something like, “I’m not good enough to go to church” or, “I don’t want to go to church because people will judge me.” I try to talk to them and say two things; I tell them, “Look, neither one of those things are what ‘church’ is about, and there are people/Christians/churches out there that actually get that, so just know that.”

God Almighty has an individual, unique, and real love for all of us here on earth—so why is it we forget that? Like I keep saying—WE’RE ALL IN THE SAME BOAT.

When God was setting up the Israelites as a people group, and establishing their rules and laws and helping them get started and all, there are four verses in Leviticus that are short, but really telling:

– Leviticus 4.3a – “If it is the anointed priest who sins…”
– Leviticus 4.13a – “If the whole congregation of Israel errs…”
– Leviticus 4.22a – “When a ruler sins…”
– Leviticus 4.27a – “If anyone of the ordinary people among you sins…”

And then each one of those verses goes on to say what they have to do in order to get redeemed from falling into sin. But the point is—look, God pretty much covers all of the bases when he was listing what to do if anyone sins. God’s justice is so perfect, He doesn’t assume that ANY PERSON down here on earth is above sin. Look, He even gave instructions for what to do if the ANOINTED PRIEST sins—heck, that was the FIRST ONE IN THE LIST!

Since God realizes no one’s perfect, He set things up with the intention that *ANYONE* can sin—EVERYONE is capable of it, NO ONE is above it. He did not hold any person as being above the influence of sin.

So the next time you get tempted to think of yourself as just SO set apart because, you know, you’ve been saved for years, you regularly attend church, you’re “doin pretty good in not sinning” (you think)—remember that the person you saw or heard about the other day engulfed in sin, not attending church or anything—you are in the same boat as them, as that person is as precious to God as you are to God. Both of you. Equally.

We’re all in the same boat.

–Travis J

Started on August 10, 2012

Finished on August 14, 2012, 10.37-ish AM


Giving for Ourselves

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We’re so full of ourselves, aren’t we?

We think,

Ooh man, I gave to this-and-this cause, I’m pretty good”, or

I sure am doing a good thing and being faithful”, or

Man, I give such a nice amount of money as a tithe”, or

I paid my tithe at my church—I’m a really faithful person”, or we think,

I spent time volunteering time and money to this other charity or church—I am blessing someone else a lot.

Leave it to us to pervert something as innocent and positive as donating our own resources, and twist it into something about which we GLOAT or PUFF UP ourselves.

It really is uncanny how selfish we are—everything always comes back to US *rolleyes*.

How bout this, though—if there is an omnipotent God of the universe, Who is supreme—then I’m just guessing—*more than likely* He doesn’t somehow ~nEeD~ you. Just sayin. Now I know we could branch off into a whole ‘nother theological discussion about “Why God made us if He didn’t need us~” and all that jazz that’s been debated and discussed ad nauseam already. Not the point here. So anyway, BACK TO the point. One interesting take on it is the following:

There’s a part in the Bible where the Israelites were getting started as a people group, and God was giving them their rules of conduct, and just setting them up, and whatnot. God tells it to a certain Israelite, Moses, and Moses is supposed to tell everyone else about it. So around all that, Exodus 25:2-3 says,

Speak to the people of Israel, that they take for Me an offering; from every man whose heart makes him willing you shall receive the offering for me. And this is the offering which you shall receive from them: gold, silver, and bronze.

Seems kind weird, huh? God says,

Make them do an offering, but it’s only whoever’s hearts is prompted that they have to give it to me.

WWEEE are the ones that get all caught up in the dollars and cents of giving. But maybe it isn’t about the *actual* gift itself that is given to God? Maybe God doesn’t need the money. Maybe God doesn’t need the blood offering. Maybe God doesn’t somehow NEED our tithes. Imagine that.

Perhaps it is for our OWN good, and perhaps it is something that is meant for US when we give..? Who are we to think we can somehow give God resources that He couldn’t otherwise get? God is not a “Cause” like the thousands and thousands of other causes that are always vying for our attention. He’s going to have His will and His way no matter what.

The point is—are we going to be a part of it? And is our act of offering something to Him meant to spark something in US and not somehow meet a need of the omnipotent God Almighty that He somehow couldn’t otherwise get?

Here’s the thing—God don’t need ANY of us, ok? He is GOD. He’s gonna get done His will on this earth. Like honestly, stop puffing up yourself and thinking you are just so good—you cannot somehow “help God”.

The Christian faith is not about somehow roping in as many unsuspecting humans as you can get, and making them somehow think like you. Don’t be such a Socialist in trying to make everyone “the same”. I have my suspicions that the American Evangelical Christian church has business-ized the Christian faith too much and has made it sound like we’re just trying to “get as many converts as we can so we can get a bunch more money and tithes coming in” and run it too much like a business. But that shouldn’t be the focus and shouldn’t be the point. And that’s coming from ME—someone who sees the value in business, Capitalism, planning, strategizing, budgeting, etc. etc. I went to business school, I’ve worked my whole life—I see the value in it all. But no, it’s—it’s too much in American Evangelical Christian churches—it’s not about cash flow month-to-month and sheer growth for the sake of growth. It’s *not* about these things.

Another part of the Bible even says it flat-out—it says you should be a cheerful giver when you give your money to stuff (2 Corinthians 9:6-7). If it was all about the bottom line, the Bible wouldn’t say it that way. The Bible—meaning, the certain author that was writing that certain passage—would’ve said something like, “Just make sure the money is given, regardless of the person’s heart intent.

But it doesn’t say it that way.

Now if the Bible bothered to mention the heart intent and internal condition behind your giving your money to the church, my thought is, it is a valid thing to address and identify your heart intention behind giving; the focus it not left solely to the actual resources themselves that you give.

Furthermore, it is my point that it is not only the person/church/cause to which you are giving that is meant to be edified and helped—maybe it is for YOU, the GIVER. Maybe YOU are supposed to learn something through it all. THAT is the point.

And additionally—think about it, when you’ve given things to other people in your life when you have done it out of free will and because you wanted to—it feels good, doesn’t it? It is a truly fulfilling thing. But not only just the fact that it “feels good when you give to someone else” (which is true)—but you really *can* learn lessons through doing it.

Well that’s the way it is with God! That’s the reason it ties in with the Scripture where Jesus Christ Himself says, “When you’ve done something for someone on earth, you’ve done it for Me.” (Matthew 25:40) It’s all the same thing. It’s all about love. Showing love to others directly affects your relationship with God because He loves them with the same perfect and unyielding love that He loves YOU. We’re all connected, as His children and His humans—whether ya like it or not.

Think about it.

Started on July 30th, 2012; 5.20-ish PM

Finished on August 4th, 2012; 8.25-ish PM

—Travis J



Little by Little

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How dare we?

We want stuff now! Wait wait wait wait—what? We have to WAIT for things sometimes..? Um no—don’t  think so. I’m gonna need the end result NOW.

Microwavable dinners

Get rich quick

Pay your bills online

Next-day shipping

Fast food

Now now now—NOW!

Why do we do that..?

Now about this topic, most people will just say the usual rant about “How dare we think we can get everything now? Patience is a virtue, let’s be more patient, have more faith, and wait.

Mmk blog’s over, thanks for readin! Cool story, bro.


That’s a good lesson, and certainly a lesson that most of us have heard before in SOME form or fashion. You’ve either watched a movie and they’ve said it, heard it at church, your parents or someone in authority told you—or SOMEWHERE along the line—you’ve heard that same lesson of, “You can’t just have everything now—you have to wait.” And like I say—it’s a good lesson, and it’s true.

Sometimes it just doesn’t stick though—we don’t remember it. We get caught up in wanting things instantly, and this lesson is just not enough. Like for instance—when you know that the outcome of something is already going to be a certain way, it’s like, what’s the point of going through the motions and wasting a lot of time..? It’s tempting to just think, “Let’s just do the end result.”

Well, if you stick with that logic 100%—you’d never watch a movie! You’d just go around watching the ends of movies all the time, and have no build-up. That’s no fun. There’s no journey. You then eliminate the whole premise of going to a movie—for FUN, for a JOURNEY of sorts.

Now that’s absurd! As results-oriented of a person as I am, I’m realizing that life’s not all about the bottom line, the end goal, or the objective-at-hand! Sometimes, it’s about the journey that gets you to where you’re going. You’ve heard the old cliché/adage—“It’s not the destination, it’s the journey.” I don’t generally like clichés, but I think that one’s got some truth to it.

Just look at Exodus 23.29-30. In this context, you see where the Israelites are now sort of coming into their own as a people group—God’s giving them laws, giving them some land, just getting them set up and whatnot. In these two verses, God’s letting the Israelites know that He’s going to take obstacles out of their way that hinder them from being their own, free people. But look at the exact quote of what God says,

I will not drive them out before you in one year, or the land would become desolate and the wild animals would multiply against you. Little by little I will drive them out before you, until you have increased and possess the land.

That’s kind of eye-opening to me. Because to me, in my mind, I think, “Well, if you already know what needs to happen, let’s just rush in and do it!” But that’s not right. I have to check myself. It’s not ALL about the end result. And BONUS, in these verses, God gives the “WHY” behind the reason He says, “Wait, it’s not gonna be all at once, it’s gonna be little by little—because the wild animals would multiply against you.”

Now, here in our real lives in these times in which we live, I’m not saying you’re going to be torn apart by wild animals if you’re not patient 😛 . But the point is—there is a method to the madness. You need to wait and to be patient because you know why? The things you are going to learn, and the things through which you are going to go are going to be better for you in the end than if the end goal were to just happen instantaneously.

Oftentimes in life, there is a process that must play out in sequence before things happen. (This makes it sound like I’m trying to jump into a predestination/free-will debate—NO! Do not allow your mind to go there! That is NOT the point here!) The point here is that sometimes we need to be aware that we need to go through the process because it is actually the process that is just as important as the end goal that ends up happening. We learn things, we grow, we are challenged through the process; and all of that gets us ready for OTHER things beyond merely that “end result” with which we’re always so encumbered.

You can make the comparison to any number of things. Think about it—schoolwork. Sure if you were to cheat on an assignment or get someone else to do it for you, maybe you end up with a good grade. That’s what matters, right? Getting that grade on that one assignment? Let’s just get that end result—who cares about the actual PERFORMING the work as long as you get the grade. The thing about it is, perhaps doing that work and going through that process rather than just instantaneously arriving at that end result is what is going to be strengthening you the most for what comes AFTER that “end-goal” of a grade. See there’re these evil little devils called EXAMS. And it’s a funny thing about exams—usually you’ll realize that if you’ve taken shortcuts to get the nice little end-result “good grades” on all these papers or assignments down the line—it ain’t gonna be so pretty when you try to take that exam. You are going to suck, haha. You are going to be in trouble.

And that’s just one example, but do you see what I mean? Many times it’s the process you go through that is what’s need most, rather than just that perceived “Finish line” we always make out, with stuff.

“Well why, God?! WHY do I have to go through these hard times?! How could this happen!? Why should I even be DEALING with this certain thing in my life?! Why can’t this thing that’s troubling me just go away!?!?! I just need to reach the end goal of RELIEF from these troubles.”

It’s not just that end result. It’s that journey. Perhaps you need to be strengthened. Perhaps you need to learn something that will better equip you for something else down the line.

God is a logical God—we are logical beings and we were made in His image. Read through the Bible—you’ll find that the ENTIRE way through the book, things are explained “WHY”. Both sides of the equation are done. It’s airtight.

The only thing that’s missing is our execution of the things we read in there. Let us not forget them. Let us take verses like these ones in Exodus 23.29-30 and let us remember that instantaneous may not be the way God works all of the time. And you know what, whatever comes our way, that is ok. If you know Him and are a child of His, you don’t have to worry that things aren’t happening instantaneously.

—Travis J

Started on 7/17/2012

Finished on 8/1/2012, 1.00-ish – 2.00 AM-ish



Sometimes stop praying and DO, Exodus 14.15

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith

Whether you’re a Christian or not, you can appreciate the topic of this blog—which is Prayer.

And when I say that, I *don’t* mean to state in relativistic terms that somehow,

Oh this truth is just as valid if you think about prayer’s being just ‘meditating’ or something, and you don’t think that prayer is to the Almighty God of the universe—the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob—is real or valid.

I won’t ever be relativistic with my faith where I identify a principle or a point about my Christian faith and somehow state that “This principle is the Christian VERSION of a certain principle, and every other religion and philosophy has its own VERSION of this given principle”.

Now, I *do* think on a principle level with things in life, and I *do* believe that there are certain principles that ALL sorts of religions and philosophies promote that reflect the same principles that God the Father relayed to us through Jesus Christ. And so what that means is that lots of times, there are incredibly good principles and statutes that you can find in all sorts of OTHER religions and philosophies besides just Christianity—I don’t have any problem with admitting that. Truth is truth. Now all that having been said, what I said before still echoes—I’m not just going to compartmentalize Christianity and my faith in God to be “just another religion” in a set of any number of other religions from which anyone can choose, all equal in validity or truth. Sometimes you find identical principles across various religions, but even though that’s true, a relationship with Jesus Christ is the main thing that matters, whether you call it a “religion” or not, and whatever other stuff you believe in ADDITION to the relationship with Jesus Christ or not.

But I’m not here to play that game in this post. The purpose of this blog is not all of that stuff about “the Christian faith” as whole. Since I’m starting to chase too much of a rabbit trail right now, let’s get to the issue at hand—prayer. All of that nearly un-related prologue aside, here’s the real point of this blog:

Sometimes you need to stop praying about something, get up, and DO. You’re prayed up, you know the answer (or you *kinda* know the answer), and it is now time for you to just DO; to get up and DO.

And the LORD said to Moses, ‘Why do you cry to Me? Tell the children of Israel to go forward.’

That’s Exodus 14.15.

Whether you are a person who’s been a Christian and been on your hustle with your faith for a lot of your life and sought the Lord and His truths as you should, or whether you are a new Christian who has cried out to the Lord: you need to learn this, take it to heart, remember it, and act upon it.

So often we’re told that we just need to pray more. And that’s a good thing—and it’s true! The Lord God wants a relationship with us, so certainly we need to communicate with Him. He wants every one of us on the planet, and He wants us all individually, and He wants us completely.

Another reason we pray is not just because we realize that since we are in a relationship with God, prayer is one way of communicating with Him; but also, so often we recognize our own limited ability and our own humanity, and we just get floored and confused sometimes. We get to a place where we’re like, “Man, I am at the end of my rope, and I don’t know what else I can do…” and we pray.

And these are good reasons to pray, too—keep it up.

But lots of times, we SUBSTITUTE acting with praying. INSTEAD of taking action, we pray. In all of this bombarding we get from our churches and our friends that encourages us to “Pray more” (which, again, is not a bad thing in and of itself), we’re not told enough that sometimes you already know what needs to be done, and so you should DO it instead of praying about it. Here’s two examples. I’m sure you could think of more reasons why sometimes action is better than prayer. But here’s two:

Sometimes you’re so prayed up about something that you’re so aware of the situation and all of its different aspects and angles—few people know the situation in its entirety better than you do. This certain situation is on your mind, and so you’re thinking about it all the time. And you’re thinking, “Well if I do this-and-this, then that-and-that will happen.” You’ve gone over it over and over in your mind again and again, and you continue to do so. Whenever you find yourselves in situations like this, sometimes you need to go ahead and take an action. Something is wearing on you that it is the thing you need to do. But you don’t do it. You’re scared. You’re scared that the results of that action are gonna hurt.

Or the other reason that you pray INSTEAD of taking an action is because you wonder if the certain action is even the right thing to do. You think to yourself, “Well, really, I’m not 100% convinced that this is the right action to take.

And like I said, you could probably think of more reasons why praying instead of acting is bad.

I just will say that many times, we *DO* know what the correct course of actions is, yet due to fear of whatever, we do not act on it. We say, “Oh we’ll pray about it.” And that’s a cop-out sometimes. And honestly, as you learn and grow, as you collect more wisdom and let God continually form and shape your mind, you will see more and more times in your life where you will be faced with decision-making and you do NOT have to pray because you know Him, you know His principles, His character and nature; and as you’ve seen Him work in your life, you will increasingly be able to readily identify the correct course of action to take or the correct decision to make without having to spend as much time in prayer. And you will realize how at peace you are with such decisions you make even without prayer—you *can* be confident in them. They *can* be Scriptural, rational, and the most loving thing you can do—which is all how you wanna live your life ^_^ . Living those ways brings you the most liberty in your life, honestly. Oh, you already have the supreme amount of freedom you can have—you *are* THE decision-maker of your life, that’s true. But there are certain decisions you make in your life that can bring you a higher level of liberty than other decisions you can make in your life.

And see now I’m gonna have everyone upset, saying, “Oh Travis is so arrogant and he’s trying to tell us all to be arrogant—not thinking prayer is necessary.” Again I tell you, I am *not* saying prayer is unnecessary. I have seen the power of prayer in my own life—particularly through a somewhat-recent family tragedy that turned upside-down my family. So I’m not downing prayer. I’m not somehow sayin, “Eh, get strong in your faith and don’t worry about prayer.

Get up and DO. No one else can do it for you. YOU have to.

–Travis J

Started on 7/13/2012 and 7/19/2012, 4.30-ish PM

Finished on 7-22-2012, 12.30 AM



True Nature of Love? Letting People Choose

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith

So many people get caught up in the question of free will–that is, whether each one of us as individuals, has free will over our lives and calls all the shots, etc. On the one hand, people say,

No no no, everything that happens in life is pre-planned.

And then on the other hand, people say,

No no no, it is *totally* up to us–we all have the final say in our own lives.

And the opinions on both sides have the arguments that say, “Well, we’re all ultimately just a product of each one of our own our environments, and one’s actions are strictly a function of each one of our own’s environments.” and then opinions like, “Well, we may be INFLUENCED to act a certain way by our environment, but we ultimately always have a say in whether we act on such things or not.

So all that is all that. I’m not here to play that game today. The deep questions like that are boring to me, because theologians and scholars argue for and against these types of questions all the time, and neither side will ever reach a conclusive point that is universally accepted as truth. So in that sense, to me, it’s boring to engage in those conversations.

HOWEVER, it’s interesting to know about such debates and to get you thinking about life. And as far as this particular debate goes, about free will, for all of the people that think God is just an overbearing father figure up in the sky controlling everything, passages like Exodus 13.17-18 are pretty interesting because they are strong evidences that God leaves stuff to US, as people.

At this place in Exodus, God’s just taken the Israelites out of Egyptian slavery, and the Israelites are currently traveling to the new place where they will live. Now, whatever movies or media we’ve seen about this story–guarantee it doesn’t accurately portray just HOW MANY people we’re talking about, here, that comprised ALL of the Israelites–this was a ton of people about which we’re talking. But I digress.

Anyway, this chapter 13 of Exodus and verses 17-18 are pretty interesting because we are taken into God’s psyche–we’re seeing God’s thought process. YHWH, the name of the “Big-Mr.-Bearded-Man-In-The-Sky” that we all call “God”. Yeah, His NAME is “YHWH”, which, translated, means “I am”. Meaning, He exists as an Independent Variable (for all of you nerds out there like me), meaning He stands alone. His existence relies literally on *nothing* else. Yeah, we’re taken into His MIND. That fascinates me. These verses (Exodus 13.17-18) show how God thinks. And like I was saying, at this point in Exodus, God had just taken the Israelites out of Egyptian slavery and was leading them to a new land, and so they were traveling. These verses are interesting because basically God thinks to Himself,

You know, I *could *take the Israelites this-and-this direction because it would be be a shorter route, but honestly, if I take them that way, they may get into war with some other nations, and then they’ll want to return to Egypt, and that is not what I want for them. So I’ll take them another way.

That’s incredible, to me. See–He indirectly states that He is going to ultimately leave the CHOICE of whether or not to return to the Egyptians up to them, to the Israelites! He didn’t just MAKE them choose the decision to remain out of Egyptian slavery, He states that, “They might want to [return to slavery into the Egyptians] and, I don’t want that for them.” This suggests that God does *NOT* just function as a puppeteer sitting up in the clouds somewhere making everything happen in life. That is, He did not just force everything to happen way back in the days of the Israelites, and then fast-forward to our times here today–my sitting here TYPING this blog, and your sitting there READING this blog–He does not sit up there and just function as a puppeteer and control everything. We DO have free will.

One of the reasons these couple of short verses where we see God’s thought process is so incredible to me is because in the chapters preceding these, we saw God do some crazy, HUGE things–some would say miraculous things. His power is undeniable, and His absolute reach and abilities unquestionable, His abilities are sovereign and omniscient. Now, it’s just incredible to me that whether God has the power or not to step in and control events (I tend to think that He *does*), He chooses not to. He leaves it up to the discretion of the Israelites. He leaves our lives up to our own discretion. Surely He is looking down on us, often, and wants to just make us choose the best course of action because He knows best, and He absolutely and supremely loves us. But He doesn’t–He lets us choose. Those are the rules of love–you WANT people to CHOOSE to love and to act a certain way, you don’t want to just force them to. Otherwise, it ceases to be love. That’s how your God works.

To me, that’s incredible.

–Travis J


12.00-ish PM


You Can Be Confident

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith,stream of consciousness/random

Genesis 49.20a, “Even though you intended to do harm to me, God intended it for good…

You can rest in that. You can rest in that promise and you can be confident in that promise–you can rest in the same principle as this one, as it is also found in Romans 8.28. You are a child of God, and no matter what happens, you can be confident in this promise. Whether someone’s ill actions toward you bring you down, or whether random acts of this fallen world bring you down–you can rest and be confident in these promises.

–Travis J


7.15 PM-ish


We’re *ALL* Subject to Fall

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith

So one of the craziest things we, as people, can do, is get so wrapped up in the high status that we assign to other people, that we begin to think they are perfect or could not possibly do any wrong, etc. etc. Like for instance, when you see someone in a position of power, over time, it just sort of becomes a “That’s just the way it is” mindset that we hold, for them—that’s just sort of the “Way we see them”, and we eventually get to a point where we don’t really question it or anything. It’s just, “the way it is”. Or similarly, when we read the Bible, we see these big and well-known quote unquote “Bible characters”, and we read and hear these stories of their great faithfulness, there in the Bible. And we get the same old stories quoted at us, and we see “how FaiThfUL tHEy wEre, anD WhY am I aS chRiSTian nOT aS FaiTHFul As THeSe epic BiBLE hEroEs??~

Well lez-be-honest, if ya do a little scanning in the Bible, there were times that these great heroes of faith did some STUPID things. After they did all their big heroic-Bible-antics that show great faith or whatever and got blessed of God or whatever, oftentimes, after all that, they went on to doing some little things and big things that were just stupid, and that showed lack of faith. Examples to follow, later in this brief blog post..

We see a few examples in the Bible people whom God ACTIVELY blessed, and HIGHLIGHTED, and GIFTED, and they were people with whom God had an active, vibrant relationship. Yet, they still acted out of emotion and did some pretty stupid things sometimes. One example is Jacob/Israel in the Old Testament. Real quickly, if you were to read the few verses in Genesis 42 – Genesis 43.15, you see an example of what I’m talking about.

Now, in the chapters in Genesis that lead up to chapter Genesis 42, you’re sort of seeing, just, the history of the patriarchs of the Bible, and how God set up the beginnings of His relationship with mankind and his designating the Hebrews as His people, and how God intervened and took care of Abraham and has family, and then his son Isaac and HIS family, and then Jacob/Israel and HIS family; it all shows how God was active in the lives of those people, the people He has set apart as His children, the “Hebrews” from Hebron and Canaan-dwellers. Now God obviously dealt one-on-one with Jacob and Israel, in the chapters leading up to Genesis 42. Jacob/Israel knew it, he wasn’t stupid. But even after all of that, he still had a streak of stubbornness and a time which he was not faithful, and he should’ve just clung to the past times where he and his fathers were faithful, and God took care of them. But he didn’t–He got scared:

All of Jacob/Israel’s sons went down to Egypt to get some food and supplies to bring home to Canaan since there was a famine in Canaan; and upon their arrival in Egypt, turns out all of his sons dealt with Joseph, who WAS ALSO Jacob’s son, and was who all of the other brothers attacked and sold as a slave, years ago. Jacob/Israel just thought Joseph was dead all of this time, and all of his sons thought their brother Joseph was dead all of this time. Anyway, when they’re all in Egypt, Joseph says he will not give all of these brothers provisions until they go back home to their father Jacob/Israel, get their youngest brother Benjamin and bring him back to Joseph. Now the point of all of this and why it is related to what I am speaking about in this blog is here, at this point: when all of those brothers return back to their father Jacob/Israel and tell him that they need to take Benjamin down to Joseph in Egypt in order to get all of the provisions they were sent to get, Jacob/Israel wouldn’t do it.

Jacob/Israel did *not* want to send Benjamin down to Egypt. Why? He was scared. He was living out of his emotion. Jacob/Israel was like, “No! I lost one of my other sons years ago! Why should I send my youngest son, Benjamin, now, and risk losing him too!?” And he didn’t do it. Now, Jacob/Israel had seen the hand of God in his own life, up to now; he had seen the hand of God in his fathers’ lives, up to now. Yet because of his FEAR and his EMOTION, he was not faithful with what he needed to do, right now, in sending Benjamin down to Egypt.

Now some time goes by, they run out of provisions, and Jacob and his sons and all their families and everything–they REALLY need STUFF now. So as you make your way through, to Genesis chapter 43.10, and then the few more verses up to verse 15, Judah highlights the exact thing here I’m saying. He says, “Ok dad (to Jacob/Israel), you’ve refused to send down Benjamin all this time, and now stuff’s getting real, we need supplies now—can we go yet, and take Benjamin? If you had just done it before, the first time we told you we needed to do this, we coulda been gone and come back with more provisions TWICE now.” THIS TIME, Jacob/Israel complies. But it took some time to go by, and for things to get a little more miserable. And it need not have been, had he just been faithful as he had done with things in his life, previously, and realized that God would take care of him JUST AS GOD HAD DONE IN ANY NUMBER OF TIMES IN THE PAST.

So I have two MAIN points my point in this brief blog post, and then I have a third MINOR point:

1)      First I want to get you to identifying the fact that we are ALLLLL in the same boat, as far as, it is true that each one of us individually relates with God (now, He deals with different people in different ways sometimes, certainly, because we are all unique–but we all are dealt with, individually). There are no LEADERS or “Really strong Christians” that just have it SO figured out that they are not subject to fall, or subject to sin sometimes, or subject to just act with less-than-perfect faith sometimes. The point is, every single one of us, individually, relates with God, no one “has it all figured out”, everyone is subject to backsliding or being LAZY in our faith—even one of the monumental characters of the Bible with whom God OBVIOUSLY dealt in a big way, like Jacob/Israel. Oftentimes, your leaders have a stubborn streak with God—and if we are honest with ourselves, *ALL* of us have been known to have a stubborn streak with God.


2)      Second, my point is to implore you to not give in to your emotion so much. Like I was saying, in Genesis 42—Genesis 43.15 with Jacob/Israel, and then when you read about Solomon in the Bible, because they were giving in to emotion, it delayed their being faithful to God or it STOPPED their being faithful to God. A second example beyond just Jacob/Israel, is Solomon. Solomon was granted, LITERALLY, more wisdom than anyone else in the world. I tend to think that it was a supernatural thing where God literally unlocked more brain-power, and Solomon was given an ability to think and reason with more brainpower than anyone else before him, or anyone else has since him, and that he was tapped into more sectors of the brain than anyone else before him or since him. But what’d he do? He ended up getting sexually involved with many many many many women (foreign women with different philosophies), and it affected him—negatively. He knew better, obviously; but he gave in to his emotion. And it bit him in the butt. And due to Jacob/Israel’s unfaithfulness and due to Solomon’s unfaithfulness, God’s blessings were either delayed or interrupted and ceased. When you get a sense, or a call, or a prompting of the Lord—one of those ones that inexplicably and obviously form the Lord—follow it. Do it. Don’t delay. Don’t let your emotion or your own stubbornness and “stiff-neck” displace your faithfulness.


3)      Third, I’m here to encourage you in this brief blog post to just make sure you never stop questioning things. Always hold other peoples’ feet to the fire; it’s *OK* to have a certain level of doubt and skepticism about things, and constantly demand that people prove themselves to you. It’s ok to do all of that. Now the danger comes when you take that *too* far, and you stay so skeptical and cynical all the time that you just become a NEGATIVE or PESSIMISTIC person—God doesn’t want that for us either (Side-note: you have more liberty and more happiness and peace in your life if you live your life in from a “glass half-FULL” mentality instead of a “glass half-EMPTY” mentality. Anyway, that’s just a minor point here—nothing much to do about what I’m really discussing in this post). Hold your own feet to the fire and make sure you are acting out of faith; but also, do so with your leaders. They ain’t perfect. And neither are you.

Travis J


7.35 PM-ish



Get Over Yourself and Don’t Be a Doormat

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith

“Smart as a serpent, harmless as a dove”

You know what that’s from? (Matthew 10.16)

You need to be smart, Christians. You *DON’T* have to be a doormat to the world. You *don’t* have to let everyone walk all over you. You are to be empathetic to other people, be compassionate and GENUINELY caring, and feel their pain, yes. You are NOT to be full of yourself, and neither are you supposed to look down on any one, nor judge anyone, nor think you’re better than anyone, no. But all of that having been said, you also do not have to let anyone walk all over you.

Furthermore, you do *not* have to count yourself out, nor allow yourself to remain ignorant of the ways of the world. You *are* to be a person that is not OF the world even though you live IN the world. But that having been said, you do NOT have to be weak, and you do not have to be ignorant. You can be aware of the ways of the world without engaging in them. You do not have to become a slave to the ways of this world. You DON’T have to play the tired old games that everyone else plays in this world. You can rise above.

One of the ways you stave off falling into the trap of becoming bought off by the world is, well, to refuse to be when someone tries to buy you! Don’t owe anyone anything. Guard your actions closely and don’t let anyone buy you out. What do I mean by that? You won’t really understand until you read those few verses out of the book of Genesis in the Bible.

Aww you gonna make excuses now?? You say don’t “have a Bible”? First, you’re probably lying. Second, if you have Internet to be able to read this blog, then by default—YA HAVE A BIBLE. Look up these short passages and think about them as you read them, verse-by-verse. Abraham never let anyone buy him out:

1) Genesis 14:17-24

2) Genesis 23:7-17

The first passage says that Abraham did not let this guy give Abraham stuff because Abraham did not want it to be said that THAT GUY was the source of Abraham’s blessings. The second passage is similar.

*sigh* I hear all you smart-alecks out there now: “Oh, Travis said it’s a sin to take gifts from people–his theology is all messed up.-_- I’ll ignore your inability to understand and grasp the heart of what I’m saying here. And the way I’ll ignore it is to continue my analysis so that maybe you can understand the point I’m making, which supercedes this ignorant and premature judgment some of you have made on this piece of writing so far.

Abraham’s actions are smart. He remained faithful to God even though people tried to buy him off. Sometimes it’s so easy to sell out, but what’d Abraham do? He took the higher ground, he stood on his own two feet and on his faith that God would provide for him, and he did not take handouts.

Why? Is not our society littered with people that will just TAKE whatever freebies are given to them? Sure it is. If you’re a human being with even the slightest understanding about the concept of “give and receive”, then wrong or right, we often feel a sense of debt when someone does something good for us, gives us something, helps us out, or what have you.

You’ve experienced this. Think back to when you’ve been at work—just any day, a regular day. Your coworker comes up to you and says, “no no no, I got it…” and does something for you that you were about to do, that was YOUR duty, or does something for you that you were just about to do, or something. Or how about when someone’s just gotten you a gift or done something nice for you out of nowhere? You kinda feel like you “owe them”, or you want to do something back to them and reciprocate by doing something nice for them don’t you?

My whole point here is that Abraham did *not* want to give a MAN, a HUMAN BEING, the right to boast over being the source of Abraham’s successes. Abraham faithfully wanted to attribute that to God, and to God alone. Abraham did not directly attribute his successes and blessings to himself, nor did he give in to the pressure of other peoples’ trying to buy him off because he did not even want to approach the possibility of giving someone else the right to say that THEY were the source of Abraham’s blessings.

Let’s get over ourselves. Let’s not worship our own success. Let’s not hoist up our own efforts. If you start thinking you are the sole cause of all of your successes and blessings, you’re walking on dangerous ground. God will make sure you are humbled. He loves you that much to allow you to be humbled. And guess what? The more stubborn you are, it’s possible that the harder something has to hit you before you get it through your thick skull that HE is to be hoisted up and thanked for your successes and your blessings in which you find yourself.

Ephesians 2:8-9; 1, Corinthians 1:29 . Look them up real quick—you have a Bible. Oh you don’t have one?

You’re lying.

— Travis J

Started: 6/28/2012—4.15 PM-ish.

Ended: 7/2/2012—12.40 AM-ish


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