19
July
2008

Emotion vs. Cold Steadfastness..

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith,poems

Usually I only write EITHER

-something that’s a serious thought, inspires discussion/original thought amongst readers, and offers some sort of a challenge (either to action or way of thinking);
– OR what I write about is some poem or something that’s just an expression of what I’m thinking and feeling.

So earlier today, I did just that–I posted a “poem” (if this piece of writing is even worthy to be referred to as such), and a whacked-out looking picture, and left it.

Then I got to thinking to myself, while I happened to be watching the Dark Knight:

“Idiot–that’s what I call myself ya see–so you don’t come off as completely psychotic, perhaps you shouldn’t have done this.”

So erm yeah, I decided that rather than censor myself and just take it down, I’d gauge it by offering the inspiration for it, and invite commentary from you–from whoever wants to participate. Sooooo, for the first time EVER–aren’t you so blown away by the suspense–this note is…..BOTH! WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWOW!
/endsarcasm

I was having a conversation with a friend of mine about the nature of life, and humanity, and stuff like that (the deep ones like this tend to be my favorite). I can’t remember exact details of the discussion, but I believe I may’ve said something about how emotion is useless or something. And he made the remark–something along the lines of, “I don’t think it’s useless–I think it’s what makes us human”. That stuck with me.

For the past few years, I’ve somewhat become fond of placing emotion and feelings in the backseat–not totally eliminating them, but definitely not letting them have priority–in my life. And doing so without losing my capacity to “be there” for my friends and for those I love. I still heard them out, heard their ideas, and are open to new ideas from them and from others. I just didn’t let my emotion, whims, and WANTS drive ME, nor did I want anyone else’s to. I had seen (and still do see) how people that act based on mere pure unabashed emotional whims and “what feels good” waste time, waste potential, waste energy, waste resources, etc. etc. I didn’t want that! I felt (and still feel, really) that I could get more done and, honestly, glorify God more by dealing with emotion in this way. Honestly, I still think it’s true to a large extent. It lines up with Scripture (per what I posted below, then there’s also the verses that talk about “dying to the flesh”). Just simply not giving in to your wants all the time, but letting it go, for something better. Denying yourself helps you to grow.

But on the OTHER hand, if you become so hard-lined and rigid, you lose OUT. You lose out on the important things. You lose out not only on your own personal life, but being a part of the people…the lives…and the love that is around you. And relationship is what it is all about. Not only a boxed-in accounting. Not only an unmoving “bottom line”.

So anyway, I guess you could say that was the “inspiration” for the poem or whatever. But if anyone wants to respond, feel free. If not, well, have a nice life ^_^

..as for that image, well, there is some more meaning to different parts of it, but that’d ruin it if I told ^_^
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The sways and waves cut me apart–
not into pieces, but a dif’rence of heart.

On the one hand they shuffle, get it all out of order,
The other hand displays they in fact make me mortal.

Comforting? Alarming? A perversion of His way?
Humanity beckons, my spirit pulls away.

What’s the true essence–
the struggle’s intense.

Both’re relentless
I reluctantly confess.

Seems choosing the one way means that you’re weaker,
When in fact, the Way reminds that you’re meeker.

You think that’d be enough for my fool head,
But then what do I know since that half is dead?

–Travis J
7-7-07, 7-9-08, 7-10-08
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Luke 14:33 So likewise, whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple.

Comments left by other people on this post, from original facebook Note on my “Travis J” facebook:

Jesse Davis That is really cool, man. The picture. I bet you’d be fun to turn into an emo kid in Photoshop…hmm…
July 19, 2008 at 9:08pm · Like
Matt Gillum Hmm…a good argument. I like though how you are willing to consider the balance of emotion and logic. They are definitely both reality and neither should overwhelm the other. But, you always seemed like a perfectly normal guy to me! I suppose the main argument of emotionalism comes from females, who do tend to participate more in the emotional side of reality compared to males. Anyway, I enjoyed it.
July 23, 2008 at 5:45pm · Like


19
July
2008

Pattern

Posted in : poems

..wrote off the top of my head in like 5 minutes when I was on a break at work.

I need compilation,
Not just stimulation.

But where goes my attention?
Of course to mere emulation.

Then there’s always an infatuation,
Given whatever situation.

Wanting to be a well of information
Digged in deep for saving his nation.

At times comes aggravation
With stuff like inflation.

But keeping in perspective creation,
Knowing life’s more than simulation,

Remembering survivors of stagflation,
And those of recession,

Realizing succession
Swings on moderation,

When in the depths of a depression,
There will no doubt come a restoration.

Travis J
7-10-08

2 Corinthians 5:17c, “…all things are become new.”


07
July
2008

got a new phone..need some numbers..(jeez, I have to do this..?)

Posted in : stream of consciousness/random

It’s funny how I never thought I’d have to do this.. But if you could, please facebook me your number or text it to me (I still have my same number) because I really don’t know any of your numbers at the moment.

You ain’t necesssarily gotta post it here for God and everyone to see if you don’t want to–just msg, or text, or something.

Thanks.

Lata..

(P.S. if I didn’t tag you–doesn’t mean I don’t want your number. I’m just in a hurry right now, so I tagged a few people, with the hope it might pop up on peoples’ mini-feeds, saying “hey, ___ of your friends were tagged in a note” and spread that way)

Comments left by other people on this post, from original facebook Note on my “Travis J” facebook (The “x” shows where my friends had posted their numbers–I didn’t want to post them here):

Travis J And my texting *is* actually working now, so if you already texted me earlier today–I didn’t get it.
July 7, 2008 at 5:50pm · Like
Elise Barrett you need mah number, bebeh?

x

yes sir
July 7, 2008 at 7:35pm · Like
Austin Guidry ‎x
July 8, 2008 at 1:00am · Like
Jordan Summer Gibson ha ha.. i love that this is happening to you of all people! lol
x 🙂
July 8, 2008 at 1:24am · Like
Daniel Aldave ‎x
July 8, 2008 at 6:25am · Like
Jessica Faith Shaw ‎x
July 8, 2008 at 3:17pm · Like
Kyle Thorn ‎x
July 8, 2008 at 4:30pm · Like
Bailey James Morgan ‎x
July 9, 2008 at 4:27pm · Like
Dayna Moore Hickman coolness…mine’s new too! =)

x
July 12, 2008 at 12:05pm · Like
Mia Loucka x
July 12, 2008 at 7:26pm · Like


03
July
2008

story

Posted in : poems

Phase one:
Heart’s all aflutter, instant spark–
Don’t seem to mind a corny remark.

He couldn’t see, was blinded–
Or didn’t want to–been hidin.

But then there was this one, comin up outta nowhere–
He needed a smoke signal, or if you would, a flare.

Past experience was zilch, and it become obvious–
But no worries, ‘cuz nature–she was with us.

“Take it away from me Lord, please, I don’t won’t it..”,
A seed kicked in the dirt–should never’ve sown it.

Phase two:
No interest, confusion, latched on to others;
His bowels might just have as well have been smothered..

“It’s all right God, I get it, that’s just what I thought..”–
Denial of deep jealousy all of this brought.

“..But don’t worry, it’s no matter–just kick the dust,
Last place is reserved always for the just.”

Phase three:
Skeptical at first–as was his nature,
Soon to be ecstatic when it seemed there was future.

The return? Boy, he’d most certainly hoped so–
A mere few weeks seemed like so long ago.

Isolation’s grown cold,
My nerves feel so old.

Holding on to the treasure,
Loving without measure,

Leading to months of sheer ecstasy.
Not the drug kind–‘cuz that’s just nasty.

Phase four:
What is this, a hitch? No pun intended–not the movie,
Nothing–I repeat–nothing was soothing.

And look, here come the old feelings again,
Shredding up his soul worse than any sin.

This time not praying, “please don’t take it away”,
“Time will lose its meaning…”, his cruel heart did say.

The precedent’s been abolished,
All hope’s been demolished;

When such love is triggered, it is only sheer presence
That can quench that desiring and yearning essence.

But, as repeated,
Unless reciprocated–

–He can’t bring ‘imself to say it! Or is it that he won’t?
Don’t say it happens to everybody, ‘cuz it just don’t.

Looks like the end–no.
To that place, he’ll never go.

Phase 5
I give you the pen, dot the i’s cross the t’s,
So that all of this won’t just be stories.

Travis,
6/29/08

Comments left by other people on this post, from original facebook Note on my “Travis J” facebook:

Danae Corley Stone wow this is beautiful. it should be a song. or not. because it’s great just the way it is.
June 30, 2008 at 7:59am · Like
Shandy Vela Wow that was amazing to read. It’s really touching. Your a really good writter.
June 30, 2008 at 9:30am · Like
Dayna Moore Hickman wow travis j….that was pretty darned awesome! =)
June 30, 2008 at 2:44pm · Like
Jordan Summer Gibson touched…
June 30, 2008 at 5:31pm · Like
DeAnna Hodge Mmm. Truth.
June 30, 2008 at 6:54pm · Like
Amanda Peredo I really like this! I’ve read it twice! 🙂
July 3, 2008 at 7:40am · Like


22
April
2008

“We Are Among the Few”

Posted in : poems

“We Are Among the Few”

Those of us who hear and see
Not what it is–but what’s supposed to be

Shudder and shrink from the fake despair,
And are surrounded with a purified air.

Some seem to get it, but too many don’t–
Please try it, and do not tell me you won’t.

Like the odd mixture of a flaming mist,
How I feel about this surely contradicts.

The name and label is meaningless
Due to to all those other peoples’ selfishness.

“Deny thyself, and take up thy cross”–
Worry not about what is to be “loss”.

–Travis J
4/22/08

Comments left by other people on this post, from original facebook Note on my “Travis J” facebook:

Brandon Lyrik Johnson Really great poem T!
April 22, 2008 at 5:18pm · Like
Travis Sammons Great work Jones!
April 22, 2008 at 5:24pm · Like
Anna Gamwell wow…thats very good and true
April 22, 2008 at 6:29pm · Like
Austin Guidry this is really good man. You really captured the feeling of sadness and almost hopelessnes really well, but the last two lines provided a good redeeming note, thanks for tagging me in this
April 22, 2008 at 7:12pm · Like
Chad Thorpe nice…
April 23, 2008 at 1:20am · Like
Steven Darst
hey man,
i like the part: “not what it is- but what’s suppose to be.”

we have that hope.. or better yet we have God’s vission.

…See More
April 23, 2008 at 9:59pm · Like
Taylor Weaver The imagery of the fourth stanza is powerful to me. Maybe not to other people,but sometimes I get weird visions on my head on what people are talking about in powms and such.
Tis’ great!
April 25, 2008 at 10:11am · Like
Taylor Weaver wow… i spelled “poems” as “powms”… how sis that happen…
April 25, 2008 at 10:12am · Like
Nick Jones I’ve got a feeling this is about those idealistic dreamers of us who see things how they should be, and want what seems impossible to have, and are afraid of failure, but hoping and striving desperately for success. M i rite?
July 29, 2009 at 12:40pm · Like


16
April
2008

SouTHeRN BapTiSt..CoNserVatIVe…rEPuBliCan…~~(thoughts)

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith

I pursue my accredited, collegiate-level studies at a 4-year, accredited American University. It is also a private, Christian university. Oh yeah–and it’s in the heart of East Texas. All that having been said, some people may think this place is some sort of hardcore Republican-only, Conservative-only, Southern Baptist-only and NOTHING ELSE ALLOWED type of place. Um hello—not the case at all. And you wanna know what? Honestly, that’s a good thing. It’s true that you need different perspectives, different points of view—not only one. In fact, around here, it’s not that hard to hear and see the sounds of disagreement with the above three entities (Christianity, Conservatism and the SBC). And frankly, it’s true that there are tons of different beliefs floating around campus. Around here, the above-mentioned three institutions aren’t just taken at face value and accepted without question. And again I say, that’s definitely good. If you are only those things and you don’t even listen to anything else, you limit yourself. Furthermore, if an institution is only those things and doesn’t even listen to anything else, it limits ITSELF. It limits the amount of influence it has, and it limits the amount of edification it affects on its members.

Many a time, I see people around here who have grown up and seen hypocrisy, injustice, flawed reasoning, and unfair things in society, in their families, in their churches, and in their surroundings. Then as a result of seeing all of these things and being exposed to something other than the Southern Baptist/ or otherwise conservative/or Republican/or Christian mantra they’ve heard all of their life while “goin’ away to college”, they start to question everything they were ever taught. AGAIN I SAY: That is a good thing! When you ask questions, you get answers. As you get answers, you become more informed, you become better at reasoning, and you come to know God closer (if you have that faith in Him). But back to my main point:
Sometimes people who are being exposed to all new things when goin’ off to college decide that maybe because they did not get satisfactory answers growing up in church (if not in church, then whatever fellowship and relationship they had with other Christians back home), and it was flawed and had some serious errors. Then because of this, sometimes people may get to thinking that “the Christian faith”, Conservatism, and—if I may get political again for a minute—the Republican party must ALL totally be at fault, and are to be abandoned without looking back. They may think that these things they grew up with are simply horrible, terrible, no-good, very bad, invalid, too old-skool, not relevant, etc. etc.

Quite frankly, it’s easy to fall into that trap of blaming everything you have been taught because you are afraid that you were brainwashed and cannot have an objective view on life. So in that case, I’ve seen how some people decide they want to be “Agnostic, Liberal,” or whatever else–I’m not too big on categories–and despise their college and their geographic area (Yes, “The South”).

REALLY?

My challenge to you is to not become so closed-minded as to bitterly reject everything you were ever taught, and flatly decide that because of some folks’ hypocrisy, misguidedness, and fakeness, everything you were ever taught is false. Think and decide for yourself. YES, this is college—yes, we are growing up—yes, we are allowed to think things differently than our parents or whatever/whoever, now that we are “out on our own” (somewhat), and now that we are becoming more and more independent. All that is true—you are correct. But by the same token, do NOT tack the blame on everything you were taught growing up and decide to reject ALL of it, either.

I know how romantic it is to be tempted to reject everything you were ever taught, and to be the rough, tough, rugged individual who “can’t be tied down to any ONE belief”. And I know how romantic it is to want to be a “rebel” and not “go with the grain”. Heck, if you know me at all, you’ll know I despise going “by the grain”, usually—and that if you try to box me in, you’re going to fail because you just can’t do it. All that having been said, I’m not ashamed to be a Christian, or be a Republican, or attend a private university that has its share of flaws like EVERY OTHER COLLEGE AND MAN-MADE INSTITUTION ON THIS PLANET. And on a little side-note, some of us are geting a bit tired of the “Christian” label. Oh we love Christ, we still confidently hold true to the Bible, we hold true to principles of knowing and loving God and others, to His saving grace, and acknowledging and living by His commandments. But we see the hypocrisy of some of those our age who have called themselves “Christian”, and we don’t want to be like them. We stay true to our faith–NOT PERFECTLY by any stretch (as that is not the focus, anyway); but we strive for it and dedicate our entire LIVES for it.

Now that I’ve dumped my opinions on you, I’ll give you a little personal info. My hope for this country is not in the Republican party. My hope for this country is not in the Democratic party (and on down the line for any other party or write-in you can think of..or can’t think of, heh). If you can’t think and reason beyond party affiliations, you’re limiting yourself. And then if you vote, it sucks for the rest of us because you’re not voting with the right intent, and if your person wins, we who DO like to vote intelligently suffer! (that late statement wasn’t intended to be specific to any elections going on now/soon, in any regard–the purpose was to speak in generalities to encourage intelligent voting, not just being stricken with the party-affiliation disease). I honestly don’t care if I have a “D” or an “R” (or hey, maybe even something else) next to my name, as long as I use my vote for a person I truly believe is best for whatever office I happen to be voting for. Like I said above, I don’t like to be tied-down or boxed in, in ANYTHING much in life, so I don’t let a “D” or an “R” decide who I vote for. It’s just that now, MY views line up more with the “R’s”. But as I said before, my hope for my country is not in a political party.

Some people say, “I vote for the person, not the party.” Good thought, and I pretty much agree—though I take it a step farther. My hope for my country is not even in solely a person. My hope for the party is in God Almighty and His ways. Now I know that sounds exactly like the unintelligent, naive mantra I spoke about before, but let me expound a bit more. My hope in my country hinges on the heart of the regular, everyday citizens of my country. Are we going to be an anything-goes nation and be a people of no standards or inherent values?

Taking a step back and looking at mankind as a whole, History’s shown that nations like that fail, time after time. So we as groups of people should have standards by which we conduct our lives. “Our lives” include the civil government that we, as a group of people, choose to subject ourselves too, right? Then I say let’s go back to the principles of what formed our country. I guess if you’re one of those limited people who wanna box me in and throw me into the, “I WANT MY JUDEO-CHRISTIAN VALUES TO STAY!!” crowd, then ok, go ahead and do so, I guess, if that helps you. It’s like I said earlier, if you try to box me in and assume things about me to absolutely define me, you’re going to fail. But anyway, back to the point:
It’s true that I believe that the Judeo-Christian values are relevant and GOOD. I am convinced that the standards God’s laid down for us in His Word, and the way this country has flourished based on the form of government that we originally set up are rooted in His principles of liberty. God’s liberty starts with the individual’s spiritual liberty, which is intertwined with internal liberty, which is intertwined with individual liberty, which is intertwined and leads to external liberty, and leads to civil liberty, and so on and so forth. These things are all laid out in His Word.

I am of the opinion that it is not only the character of a nation’s LEADERS that determines a nation’s success, but it is the character and values of its PEOPLE. People say, “We NeeD gOOd lEadERs~~”. This statement—although true—is wrong IF it leaves out the truth that we need the PEOPLE of our nation to have good character and values, as well as leaders. You’ve gotta stand for something. Believe in something. Life matters. It’s not irrelevant. Don’t just be like, “Whatev~…” and let everything slide by, unquestioned and un-scathed. It’s a cop-out to blame your leaders/party, or any other external circumstance for EVERYTHING that is wrong. Look at yourself. Are you perfect? No. Figure out what’s wrong and fix it. Are you convinced someone else is causing a problem? Fine. Understand it, convince them of it, convince others of it, and work at it. Don’t just toss aside everything you’ve even been taught as being Bible-thumping, blue-collar, Southern-traditionalist hogwash and abandon it all. Be smart. Make changes to yourself. Realize the truth. Realize the non-truth. Live accordingly.

Uh-oh, Travis hit a little personal on that one:

“‘Make changes to myself’? Man, forget you, Travis, you don’t know me–why should I have to change crap? Maybe everyone else around ME needs to change.”

Um yeah, that’s not selfish at all. /endsarcasm.

“Why have I got to change” you ask? ‘Cuz you ain’t perfect–that’s why. And did I say you are the ONLY problem? No. If you think I mean to say that, you are misunderstanding me, and have no grounds to accuse me of anything, because I am not saying that. No-one, and no-thing is perfect. This is earth. Everything is in a constant state of decline and aging, and everything is subject to scarcity. But don’t automatically assume that EVERYTHING you were taught when growing up is flat-wrong, either. Yeah there’s liable to be errors and invalidities. But don’t take cheap shots at them and shoot them all down. Some of us—despite what some may think—MANY OF US still believe in some basic, core values and principles. And we will continue to.

Let’s see..what else did I want to say on politics……oh yeah:

Don’t vote for Obama ONLY because he’s black. You’d be wrong to do so.
Don’t vote for McCain ONLY because he’s Republican. You’d be wrong to do so.
Don’t vote for Hillary ONLY because she’s a woman. You’d be wrong to do so.
Don’t vote for ______ ONLY because he/she is <insert random, useless piece of demographic data>. You’d be wrong to do so.

Anyone who does the above is engaging in activity that is insulting to fellow voters like myself who think and vote with more thought. Know what the people you are voting for stand for. If you are one of these people who thinks you’ve made a good choice on voting for someone because

– “I like the things they’ve spoken about.” Or “I liked what they’ve said in their speeches.”
or
– “I’ve become more informed by reading news articles. And…and!! That’s better than most people do!! So I mean, I’m being pretty open-minded, and making a pretty informed decision, since most other people don’t even do that.”

Oh yeah, you’re being pretty open-minded and informed…if you consider trusting purely in words from politicians’ mouths, and trusting media outlets that have ulterior motives. /endsarcasmagain.

You need to know that a lot of times, what it MAINLY comes down to in choosing someone to vote for, is how the person you are voting for has used THEIR votes, in the past. That is, know how they have used whatever position they were previously in, and what policies they have either enacted, had a hand in enacting, voting for, did NOT vote for, had a hand in building up, and had a hand in tearing down–WHATEVER. Lots of times people who run for office used to be senators, Congressman, Representatives, etc., of some sort. They were people that had voting rights in passing and enacting policies and such. Know how they used THOSE votes. Make sure their character is such that you think they will continue to use the office they are running for for the same means by which they voted for in the past. I really hope you don’t fall for silver-tongued orators, or simply go by what you hear politicians say. Voting because “they’re a good speaker” just flat isn’t the best idea. You need to know their core values and beliefs, their track-record with prior power that have had, and what they pledge to do if they get into office.

And you know what–I’ll be honest with you: I say all of this, and I really need to do a better job of it myself. I’m not going to sit here and claim I do these exhaustive searches on the people that are running for various offices all the time as often as I say we should do it here, either. So hey, maybe we can get better at it together ^_^ .

Why do I go on and on, speaking about this political stuff? Is it for the sake of, “Makin sure ‘Merica keeps our superpower status~”? No, not primarily, really. I’m at the point where I do not exalt my nation above anyone else’s, nor do I think my nation is inherently “better” or “worse” than any other nation. I just simply believe two things about civil government in general:

-Like anything else, it’s end is to glorify Christ.
-Government is to be subject to man—man is not to be subject or ruled by his civil government.

So I say a lot about the subject for those two reasons—not just to make sure “America is still a superpower”. (But if you do want to talk about national defense and superpower status with me sometime, I’m open for it, just let me know. I just feel like it’s out of scope, here.)

Lata..

Comments left by other people on this post, from original facebook Note on my “Travis J” facebook:

Peyton Porterfield
Niiiiiiiiiice.
I hope that a lot of people read this. I also hope they read it through and understand that:

you aren’t interpreting the labels of Christian, Conservative, and Republican to mean the same thing.

It’s one thing to have personal beliefs and to vote for the person who has voted for those in legislature, but, as you state, to vote for someone entirely on ‘demographic terms’ (and, as I’d like to point out, because it’s popular to support a cetain candidate or to bash another) is immature, ignorant, and, again as you say, detrimental for those who actually do have strong beliefs and want to cast an intelligent and researched vote.

I also wonder what pre-election campaigning would be like with out mass-media agendas that are obviously outlets for the owners’ or board of directors’ opinions. Just because most news corporations tend to criticize Bush, it does not mean McCain is an unworthy candidate. The same goes for pro-/anti- Clinton and Obama spins…
April 15, 2008 at 4:20pm · Like
Peyton Porterfield ‎…The point is: vote for the reasons that are given by your beliefs, and don’t base your beliefs on the media, friends’ opinions, criticism from peers or teachers, sudden placement in ‘open-minded’ communities, or on a celebrity abusing their underserved attention and vocalizing their support for any candidate or cause. Seek Christ and think for yourselves- he has an agenda for each one of us in his Kingdom.
April 15, 2008 at 4:27pm · Like
Travis Sammons
Great writing Jones. I share your beliefs on all of the major points, we should not be ignorant in our choices and deny all that has come before us just because it is easy or justifiable.

“-Like anything else, it’s end is to glorify Christ.
-Government is to be subject to man—man is not to be subject or ruled by his civil government.”

On the first one, I will always believe that is true; but it seems as if we have lost our way.

Secondly, not many people will buy that second point, but it is really true. We should take control of our government and the policies that should be enforced; but we should do it in an informed and intelligent way.
April 15, 2008 at 4:51pm · Like
DeAnna Hodge
Amen to actually looking at the issues, the people, and not just doing something because it’s the cool, the woman, the black, or the republican thing to do. :] I wish we had better candidates than the ones we have, some with better morals and better convictions, but as it is we have to make a decision based on the people who are nominated. So I think as a whole, we as followers of Christ, need to seriously pray for this country. I mean, no matter who is elected, we’ve got to support them and pray that they can get us through. Anyway… that’s just my two sense. I’m loving the writing. :]
April 15, 2008 at 6:56pm · Like
Chris Dier
I agree to not limiting yourself to a label because you hinder education or other personal advances but be careful when you put your faith of your government in your god. If any religion or government accomplishes making their religion and politics synonymous then that nation itself becomes a theocracy. Theocracies can prove deadly, dangerous, and unfair to those who are not part of the belief that the government holds.
April 16, 2008 at 11:30pm · Like
Chris Dier
I agree with your rant about people voting intelligently or solely because of their party affiliate. I agree that it’s retarded to vote for someone for something they can not help, skin or sex. You claim, “…the way this country has flourished based on the form of government that we originally set up are rooted in His principles of liberty.” Although some Christians helped form our government, most of our founding fathers were deists without any judeo-christian values. Most of our early presidents were not Christians and even wrote indecent things about it. Thomas Jefferson even rewrote the bible.
April 16, 2008 at 11:30pm · Like
Chris Dier
If you want to return to the way the founding fathers wanted it then Christianity would be erased completely from our public sectors because our country was not founded on any specific religion and does it’s best to not endorse or hinder any particular religion. This precious separation of church and state keeps your churches tax free and protects the people with the beliefs that contrast the popular belief or it protects people with no belief at all. The founding fathers agreed when they ALL signed a treaty with Tripoli stating, “the Government of the United States of America is not, in any sense, founded on the Christian religion”
April 16, 2008 at 11:30pm · Like
Chris Dier
Nonetheless I agree with the fact that governments should have decent standards to adhere to in order to progress and properly work. However, i feel that this goal can be achieved without implementing any certain belief because that would hinder the other beliefs. Consequently, it would then limit our government… and you don’t see big on limits. Great note Travis keep them coming… I like to hear what you have say and the intellectualness behind it. Even though i’m not baptist, conservative, or republican but their evil, secular, overly leftist apostates, i still enjoyed it 🙂
April 16, 2008 at 11:31pm · Like


16
April
2008

Today’s Feelings–why I no blog no more!?

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith

I used to blog all the time, and I loved it. I never stopped loving it–I still do, and no, I haven’t forgetted teh ENgLlISh. but I’ve loaded myself down with so much to do, it makes it hard to write out what I am thinking, a lot of times.
Now that I *remotely* have some “free time”-ish, and I always have a lot on my mind, I want to write, today. It sucks having to hold it in all the time.

Maybe I should have just been an English major, like I’ve thought about.
No.
woulda been cool–but no, it is not for me right now. But there’s other stuff I wanna do.

Oh yeah, and coming from someone who doesn’t use the facebook applications very much to send stuff, or whatever, I felt like hugging some people today. So if you got one of those hug things via the “HugMe” (https://apps.facebook.com/huggingme/) application, know I don’t send those things out very often. If you didn’t get one: I still like you–probably 😉

As I returned to my apartment today, a bit tired from last night’s MarioKart and Mario Party excursion with Brandon via GameCube; and a bit tired from projects, homework, and a Math test that’s been the faithful thorn in my side for a while now; I’m pretty exhausted today. The only reason I’m up now, and not asleep is that pot of coffee I downed…and the stuff I wanna write about.

It’s kind of all over the map, but it’s what is on my mind, so if you’ve got some time, have a good read–I’ll be all over the place, heh. I wrote a few notes on different things and split it up because I don’t like looking at huge walls of text; and I assume any readers of mine (are you still out there….yoo-…hooo….ooo??) don’t like them, either.

Lata..


16
April
2008

Never gon’ be good enough…

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith

It seems to me Jesus was right when He said that “The world’s gonna hate you if you know Me.” Not only Jesus said it, but the same thing’s reiterated some more, later in the New Testament. Sometimes it’s like ya just can’t win! Like I spoke about in another note, I attend a Christian, private University. Just like any other institution, people either on paper or consciously “rate” institutions. That’s cool, though. However, some people are very ready to attack Christ and the faith that we as His followers have in Him. Some operate from a pre-set mindset of, “Ok, how can I disprove Christianity today?”, or “play it down”, or insult” it? That is, rather than look not for positive opportunities to help and serve a private institution dedicated to His Kingdom, they will complain, either way. I think there are two sides to what I’m talking about:

1) People will get bent out of shape if a college is quote unquote “Too Christian”. And let me just take a step back—it doesn’t even have to be a college we’re talking about. It could be any man-made institution or gathering of people that claims to exist for the purpose of glorifying Christ, and edifying/existing for the Kingdom of God. When an institution claims to exist for the Kingdom of God, and then operates and is administrated for such purpose, people might think Christians are just too weak to “make it in the world”, and must have each other and resort to sporadic gatherings in order to survive. Or, for instance, if an institution dedicated to the Kingdom of God is physically located on the outskirts of a town or city, people may think it irrelevant, or like I said before, Christians isolating out of fear. (That was just an example of the bigger picture of what I’m talking about)

…other side of the spectrum…

2) Say we are still talking about an institution or gathering of people that are dedicated to, and administer it in the fashion for the Kingdom of God. But let’s say in this second situation, the institution does not invoke the name of Christ as much as the first one. Or let’s say, this one isn’t administrated/operated/ran as a “A Christian institution” to the extent that the above one was. (Again, just examples) Critics might claim, “hypocrite” on the institution because “It’s not actin’ very Christian, like it claims”.

What’s the difference, and what am I really talking about, with these two examples? I know it’s sort of hard to see what I’m talking about, but the point I’m trying to make is that when there is a quote unquote “Christian institution”, it will either be one that is actively pursuing the Kingdom of God, or one that may claim to be, but is actually pretty worldly. And when I say “Worldly”, I don’t mean “Sinful” or “Bad” or anything—I just mean, people are gonna complain if you’re “too Christian”, and they’re gonna complain if you “claim to be Christian but don’t really live it”.

Anyway, this whole “Damned if we do, damned if we don’t” thing is a bit annoying, I suppose. I mean, it should not detract from what we hold as truth, nor affect how vehement we live out what we believe. I’m just pointing out that it holds true—the world’s gonna be gunnin for ya if you stand for Christ. But it’s cool. Like my friend Brandon wrote about yesterday, and had to claim yesterday: God’s not going to allow us to go through anything that HE will not give us the power to withstand. He is in control.

Ain’t it a good feeling?

So just shake off dem hataz, and truly seek Christ day by day. If you don’t know what that means, just get to know Him. How do you get to know Him? I say making it a point to get in His Word (the Bible) a bit every day and just read. Then, spend some time in prayer and meditation to Him, and just tell Him what’s on your heart. He will bless you beyond what you could ever imagine as you get to know Him, and as you learn to walk with Him, day by day.

Lata..

Comments left by other people on this post, from original facebook Note on my “Travis J” facebook:

Jennifer Farrell Travis you never fail to surprise me…
I think you are probably the strongest person( notphysically haha)
I know!!!
Remember what you wrote because daily
you will doubt how hard you work when things seem to
just fall from beneath you!!!


16
April
2008

Words, actions, and their power.

Posted in : about life/the Christian faith

There are two types of people in this world:

-People who complain a lot.

and…

-..people who…don’t complain. ..A lot.

..What, you thought I was going to say something deep? O_o
:-p

Can we all just step back, take a look at ourselves, and see if we are the type of person that complains a lot? I’ve experienced friends/acquaintences/people who, for some reason, just feel it’s a number-one life priority to whine and moan and FIND something to complain about.

WHY?

Then sometimes maybe not even being a person who does it all the time, but it’s like, almost all of us–sometimes when we get in group settings–it’s just so easy to complain about stuff. Sometimes we do it without thinking. You could be talking about a certain subject–could be a small thing, or a big thing, doesn’t really matter. I’ve heard people complain about this thing they’re talking about–even when I know they aren’t even bothered by what they’re saying is happening! They’re just complaining for the sake of complaining.

Now I also happen to be a strong believer in piping up and saying something if something has gone wrong or IS wrong, so that it can be fixed. So don’t get me wrong–I’m not usually too big on the whole “grin and bear it”, thing. What I’m talking about here is an intention. Just an empty temptation to complain or whine about something–big or small–all the time. I just think it can be damaging to have petty complaints and just verbally rip things to shreds all the time.

Over the years, as I’ve read through the Bible, and have just simply been living my life and seeking Christ and such, I am convinced that there is a spiritual realm. Now whether or not it’s this quasi-magical, spiritually mystic place with ghosts and secret healing and acid-trip-looking backgrounds and such–I don’t know–I’ll leave “to each his own”, on all that. But there are things that are outside the bounds of this physical world that we sense with our five senses–things that cannot be directly sensed or accounted for. I’ve been to some churches, and heard/read some teaching on this Spiritual realm stuff, and I think a lot of teaching on it presumes too much, is done wrong, taught wrong, and encourages its people to deal with it incorrectly.

However, I have also come to the place where I think there are things that happen, beyond the words that we speak (“beyond”, “inside”, “outside”, “how/whatever it is”). And I think things like emotions, atmosphere, or this whole–I dunno what ya call it–“background essense”, if you will, can be slightly sensed, and changed, and it set an aura over the physical location, somehow. I hope I am making sense with all of this.

I say all of this to say that we should watch our words. They do have meaning. They do have–and I hesitate to use this word–“power”. All I mean to say is, they contribute to the atmosphere that surrounds us, and the atmospheres that we create when we are in groups. We can set the tone of our days, our lives, and our relationships by the words we use, and by the intention we mentally/spiritually/emotionally have behind them.

A prayer that my Government teacher from high school used to pray helps me to think about this, a lot of times. It was something along the lines of, “May we truly seek to honor you in word, action, and deed, O Lord.”

Words mean somethin’. Use ’em wisely.

Lata..


29
March
2008

I want you.

Posted in : poems

Is it bad I wanna call you just because I can?
Or be sick at the thought of you with another man?

Out of all the emotions in our sad little world,
Anger’s the only one out of me that becomes unfurled.

Is that not backwards? Is that not wrong?
Should it not be anxiety, care and confusion?

We can’t be together, you have made it clear–
Though the fault of no one, though I still hold you dear.

Memories of you–no wait, lemme stop there.
I’m searching my brain, but they are nowhere.

A hero–nothing less–for you, I desire.
If life’s a big mission, you’re worth the crippling mire.

The kind of one who’s hand is there,
when you blindly thrust yours in the air.

But you don’t believe in that:
“Just get away from me–begone–scat!”

The only one who wants to BE the one–
For sure the latter, doubtless there’s more than just some.

And as the sun’s swallowed up under the trees,
The relentless night brings with it thoughts and memories.

Now the moon and myself have one thing in common,
Up, shining brightly, but company’s just not comin.

As it’s dark, the bowels of my soul long in desperation–
Night drags on, and it all makes me feel like I’m done.

It’s now time to get up–forget, wake up, and shine–
My mind doesn’t mind, but my heart is behind.

You don’t need to tell my head, it’s aware–
But if I could just get my heart to catch up to there..

3/19/08

(it was a little different at first, then my stupid browser lost it all, so I had to re-type some. So I guess what’s here is REALLY inspired since I remember it.)

Guess I should’ve put a disclaimer at first: this is not about any one person in particular.

Comments left by other people on this post, from original facebook Note on my “Travis J” facebook:

Jordan Summer Gibson ‎”you dont need to tell my head, its aware,
but if i could just get my heart to catch up to there…” That line really spoke to me. It is exactly what I want my heart to do to. Heart ache can and will determine who you are or will become. Dont let it take over… I know your stong, but I dont want to see you end up like me.
Keep your chin up kid. She is missin out.
March 19, 2008 at 1:27am · Like
DeAnna Hodge Travis, this makes me so sad for you. :[ There is some serious emotion in this. I want it all to be better. :-/ I’m here anytime you need me.
March 19, 2008 at 2:46am · Like
Daniel Wilkinson Beautiful…. just beautiful…
March 19, 2008 at 8:28am · Like
Dayna Moore Hickman awww…travis…this is good…there really is tons of emotion in this…i really, really, really like it…and i can guess a lot i guess…I LOVE YOU TRAVIS FRIEND!!!! =)
March 19, 2008 at 8:19pm · Like
Heather Gregory-Pierce I think these things…but you can put them into words. For that I envy you. Miss you and hope all is well.
March 19, 2008 at 10:48pm · Like
Anna Gamwell very good job
March 20, 2008 at 4:50pm · Like
Vy Nguyen whoa travis, very well written but sad =(. You’ll be in my prayers. Let me know if you need me to pray for you about something in specific. You’re an awesome friend!
March 20, 2008 at 5:51pm · Like
Nick Jones Hmm.

This definitely spoke to me. Except you’re actually speaking from experience. We’re both waiting, aren’t we, Trav?
March 23, 2008 at 9:04pm · Like



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